at the end of the day, I just want him and only him. I want us to grow a friendship then get into something more. whatever he's down with, I'm down. I just don't wanna share this with anyone else. </3 pleasse don't leave me.

A party I will never forget lmao.

Hey..

So my new job is pretty cool so far. I like the management, and I love my co-workers. Hopefully I stay for a while. But I'll tell more about that later.

Right now I'm really upset. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm not sure I want a relationship anymore man. The type of girl I am, I'm too nice. TOO nice. I'm such a pushover, I let guys do and say whatever. Just cause I don't wanna loose them. But this time I can't do that. I am so sick of feeling like I don't matter, honestly I am so drained. I do way too much to be let down. All I want is to be happy and I can't even have that. I'm sick of arguing, and I'm sick of fighting to win this boy over. I like him enough to want to experience this whole relationship thing with him but just when I feel like I'm getting closer and closer, he does or says something to make me feel like I fell back. And I can't put up with it every day, it's getting so tiring :( I hate crying at night. I hate thinking like "what does she have that I don't?" all the time. I even broke my self-promise just because I trust him so much. He doesn't even realize or get it, yet he wants me to understand him. I can't do that if you don't treat me like you really want something with me, I'm sorry. If this is too much to ask for then I guess I'm not the one man =/ I don't know. If I can't even have him, I don't wanna look anymore. Honestly.

I'm so upset no one has any fucking idea.

Goodnight :///

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My day today was by far amazing in the beginning. It is a secret why (for now) but *he* knows.

But then as the day went on idk, I was all :(( :///

I broke a promise I made to myself. I just hope I'm making the right decisions here. Blaaah. Fuck being a girl. Emotions suck terribly.

I'm trying my best to continue on with this change of attitude, but it's kind of effecting me at the same time. No matter how much my attitude changes, I'm still going to feel the same way I feel about this boy. I like him, and I get scared I'm gonna loose him -.-. This shit sucks ballls.

Goodnight.

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I..........




feel like crying :/

SHAKE IT LIKE A POLAROID PICTURE!

YAAAAAAY NOW I CAN FINALLY HAVE POLAROIDS WITH MY "BEAUTIFUL" SIGNATURE ON THEM!!
Haha, take a LOOK n!ggas!

*more coming when I'm done with them*

DON'T BE MAD!!

I'm sorrry! I know I said I'd update Friday. But so much has been going on I haven't had the time!
But I've got more good news than what I had to tell you guys ^_^

Well the first good news will obviously have to be Friday's good news. && Well, here it is.

Guess who that is?? Haha. Yesssss my little sob video brought me my ghostboy back <3 LOL!!!
Sometimes you have to be the bigger person in a situation to get what you really want. I'm not sure how much I show it, but he really does make me reaaallly happy :-) ...*this is the part where y'all go AWWWWWW* LOL!

Ok ok enough squishyness. Now, look at this.

A food restaurant logo Rina? Yeah? What about it?.........
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I GOT A NEW J-O-B!!!!!!! Wooot!

That's right. If it weren't for my 2nd mother, I'd still be at the point I was in my last POST. I love you, Momsie<3
I can't wait to go shopping!!! Lol . And spoil my boo <3 Cuz I want him to smile as much as I do!

Yupp that's it. SOOOOO if you are in the NY area, you need to attend this.

Cuz it will be a blast! I'm so excited for it and y'all should be too! Come support Joo!!!!!

And that's all for now, folks. Love you readers with all my heart. Thanks for being so interested in a weird girl like myself!!! Haha ~1love

P.S. Don't forget to thank the Lord for everything, he deserves it ALL!!! Say those darn PRAYERS!

Hello Beautiful People

I've realized I've accomplished nothing big in the past 3 months, so I am very disappointed in myself. I am so used to relying on others that I never thought I'd get to this point in life. I'm super depressed. It sucks not having a job, because as much as I know y'all don't wanna hear nobody say this, but money is indeed EVERYTHING. Now in days, you can't do a thing without it. Take it from someone who's been stuck in the house 24/7 since I got fired from my last job in NOVEMBER. This shit sucks. I can't even go to school  yet.

So no more monkey business. I'm gonna keep applying to these damn stores until one of them has the decency to call me in. Wish me luck :(

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