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My day today was by far amazing in the beginning. It is a secret why (for now) but *he* knows.

But then as the day went on idk, I was all :(( :///

I broke a promise I made to myself. I just hope I'm making the right decisions here. Blaaah. Fuck being a girl. Emotions suck terribly.

I'm trying my best to continue on with this change of attitude, but it's kind of effecting me at the same time. No matter how much my attitude changes, I'm still going to feel the same way I feel about this boy. I like him, and I get scared I'm gonna loose him -.-. This shit sucks ballls.

Goodnight.